My girlfriend's husband just posted a photo on facebook. The photo was of an oven...with a bun in it. You get the point. This will be their 4th child. They've never had a complication; all her pregnancies went smoothly; all natural births. Their biggest obstacle? That it took 6 months to get pregnant this time.
I am angry, and jealous, and sad, and frustrated, and annoyed at myself for not being happy for them. And note I write "happy". Not "happier". I wish I could feel happy for them, but right now, since I literally just found out - via Facebook (the evil of all things communication!) no less - it's hard to be happy for them.
We all have our issues, I know. And just because on the outside it seems like everything is great for them, it doesn't mean it is. But seriously - four? And I can't just have two?
I've been pregnant 3 times, with 4 babies. And one survived.
She will now have been pregnant 4 times, with 4 babies.
How is that fair?
And then to top it all off, my best girlfriend who has a brain tumor just got her results from her MRI and now she has 2 tumors. Wonderful.
Happy Easter???
Oh, I know that feeling. Its so hard to be happy for them... I see all these blissful, naive comments all over facebook and just wish I could show them it's not peaches & cream all the time. I so wish it had of been for us...
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Oh, I still hate pregnancy announcements from other people. They're just so excited and SURE that they are going to have a healthy baby. It's not fair!
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